Monday, April 07, 2008

I Lost Count

I lost count of the days now. Not just the days, but the days! The days that I have been nicotine free.

Let me think out loud just a minute and then I'll let you know. Ok - my last one was on the - hmm...let me get to the calendar...April 4th was 7 it...March 27th was the last time that I smoked. So my first day of no nicotine was March 28th, 2008.

I tell ya, it has been a struggle. I have avoided all the things that I used to do. Sit at the computer - light one up. After every meal - light one up. I had more reasons to light one up than stars in the sky. PIT i FULL

Today has been kinda rough but I've made it this far.

We have a few things going on that is taking up lots of our thoughts.

1. We have got to buy another vehicle. This is pretty funny because we are vehicle poor. I mean it. If we put all of our vehicles in our yard, it would look like a used car lot. Gotta think again, so that I can tell you exactly how many we have. Our green hunting truck, there's the Dodge, then there's the truck that my mom has at her house (it was my dad's), then there is our SUV that is falling apart little by little. Ok, there's only 4 of them but isn't that enough. LOL Oh yeah, there is also the patrol car when Superman isn't working. Yep - like I said, a used car lot.

2. A graduation is in the very near future. My sister's baby is graduating from high school. We want to go to the graduation and spend a little bit of time with my sister and then we want to use the rest of the week as our vacation. So we have to plan for someone to feed the horses while we are gone, someone to feed the cats and clean the litter boxes. We have to board the dogs. Oh yeah, and now that we have a special needs cat, we have to find someone that can give Dusty his insulin shots twice a day.

3. I have a huge list of things that need to be caught up on. I think it may be easier to just throw the list away and start over.

I think that's all for now. I am gradually getting back to the computer so please be patient with me. Thank you very much for your support!


Anonymous said...

Congratulations on quitting! I normally wouldn't leave a comment, as I stumbled upon your blog quite by accident...but I read about your quit and knew I had to.

I smoked for 37 years - Gads! When I was filling out the questionnaire on the "" site, the smoking-for-how-long? question didn't even have an answer for that many years. It stopped at something like 28 years. I guess they thought I should be dead already?

I used 4mg nicotine gum for almost 4 months - and began to wonder if I just might decide to chew gum forever instead of smoke. There are people out there still using the gum after two or three years. But I knew that something still wasn't right - I never got that "oxygen rush" after quitting cigarettes.

So I switched to regular chewing gum. And that's when the oxygen rushes started. Zowie. Who could go back after that?

Besides gum, I went to Sam's Club and bought a case of those little, half-length Slim Jim's. When you just can't stand the thought of more sweet gum, they help. Also carried tubes of "string cheese." And started walking every day anywhere from 2-4 miles at a time. I bought an iPod and filled it with podcasts, and listened to them as I walked (with my dog, on deserted country roads).

In the end (it's been more than 2 years) I didn't gain more than 5 pounds and I finally got to experience life as "one of them" (you know, the non-smokers?). That was awesome. But the most awesome thing? It was getting through the anxiety and finally coming to understand this one truth - I never, not ever, liked smoking or smoke of any kind. I let my addiction hide that fact. I was born into a smoker's family and never really got a chance to know what smoke-free living was all about. What a surprise to finally meet myself, smoke-free.

Michelle said...

That is so awesome! Keep up the good work! I know a few people who have quit cold turkey-my dad one of them! He had smoked since the age of 12! Best wishes for a healthier life!

The Scavenger said...

Congrats. I have tried several times and always go back. You have inspired me to give it another shot. Thanks

karisma said...

Well you know Im behind you all the way! Keep up he good work! I think soon you are in need of an aussie holiday? You should so come and visit Me?